Wednesday, October 22, 2014

loving at a distance

So, for all the readers who have read my blog from the very beginning... you would know that I went through a rough break up.
I'm now able to happily say, I am in a relationship with a wonderful man.
I'm in a very healthy relationship.
We are open, honest, and communicate more than most couples would in their first year together.
We both recognize that each of us need that communication to feel healthy. So that's what we've created.

My Mr. is calming, compassionate, loving, generous, gentle and just an overall amazing human being. I'm sure there are a few things down the road that I'll learn about him, we all have our little imperfections, but I can't wait to see them and love him anyways.
Jam is the first person that I've ever wanted to fight for. Through thick and thin, no matter where we end up, I will fight for him.

Here's the fun part - we're 450 km's apart.
Quit yer bitchin' I'm in a different province/country/state/whatever... 

I get it. It's not really that far.
I know one of the sweetest girls in my life, has just waited 10 months to see her hunk. 10 months guys. No touch for 10 months? Come onnnnn!

I would be lying if I said that long distance wasn't that bad.
It's absolutely horrible some days.
We get to visit at least every 2 weeks. Which is fantastic, and we've promised to never go longer.
But, I am someone who needs a physical connection. I love the hand holding, the waist grabs, the hugs, the forehead kisses... I love it all. And I crave it when I'm away.
Besides the fact that I can't be in his presence as often as I'd like, I think this is what I miss most.

How do I do this? It's not that far into the relationship, but I'm struggling guys!
I have 4 more months dedicated to this town...
Then where do I go? What do I do?
Why is making adult decisions so dang difficult?